Saturday, May 29, 2010


As you may have seen I have not posted anything in a week. Thats because there was nothing to post. I was sick last weekend and had a mini run on Sunday while my son Caleb rode his bike, and let me tell you I had a hard time keeping up to him. At first he would ride at the same speed I would run and then he would take off pedaling as fast as he could. Makes for a great interval workout! But not when your not feeling good.

This week I fell into a slump. I procrastinated about everything, not just running but everything, grocery shopping (which I still have yet to do), laundry (Hubby did that) general cleaning of the house (thank goodness the kids have chores). It was just a blah week. I have been under stress  and bottling up my feelings which makes everything worse than it is. In turn I had a huge blow up at my patient and understanding hubby ( as red heads do and unfortunately he married one).  After that I started to feel better, but then the rains came, heavy down pouring rain with thunder and lightening. I know , I know just get out and run(when there is no thunder and lightening). But honestly I just didn't feel like it.

You hear of writers block, well this week I had runners block. Or rather a condition as my husband calls it Lazyitus.

I am hoping that next week will be much better. We didn't have clinic last week, and this week is our last clinic. After that I am taking the summer off from clinics but will continue to run, and then I am going to either do the Learn to Run clinic again or start the 5k clinic.  I will continue to push myself all summer long. I love running. I love how I feel after I run.

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

Itching To Go!!!!!

All day i have been wanting to run. Really wanting to run. I just have this weird urge. I have never felt that before ever. these are the days that I wish that I had a jogging stroller or that my youngest (she's 3 1/2) could finally ride her bike. I live in an apartment block and my balcony faces the street so all day I have seen people running, I am actually very jealous that I can not get out there and run with them. 

I was going to run tonight but it has been too hot and has not cooled down very much,so I will be running at 5:30am tomorrow. If I can wait that long. I have so much more energy and I don't feel sluggish anymore. I love this feeling.  It feels good.

Monday, May 17, 2010

Promises, Promises

So for a while now my oldest daughter (she is 9yrs old) has been asking me "Mommy when can I run with you? I really want to pretty please!!!!!!" So on Thursday I finally said that she could but I didn't get my run in, and then I was going to go on Friday night, but she went for a sleep over, and so Saturday night I told her that if she wanted to run with me that she would have to get up really early Sunday morning. So I set my alarm for 7am got up and woke her up and asked if she still wanted to go, she did, so we got ready and headed out the door. 

We went for our warm up walk and then took the route that I run with the running room. We crossed the street and I said "okay now we run". She said "Now????" in disbelief. Almost as if she was unsure of herself. and told her not too worry. We started our run, she was talking up a storm, I was very impressed. That little girl can run she did so well, she ran for 8mins and didn't complain about it at all. We did our 1 min walk (maybe a bit longer than that I was having a tough time!) and started again, she did so good she is a much better runner than me!

I think I have found something that we can do together and that we would enjoy together and it doesn't cost any money at all. I know that I am always promising that we can do something together and she always wants to go here and there, but I almost always can not afford to do anything. ( Thank God, my van payments are almost done!)  This way I get to spend time with my girl and get some me time as well. I will be inviting Katie on many more practice runs thats for sure! 

Monday, May 10, 2010

I Just Ran 8 Minutes!!!!!!!!!!!

Yes you read right!!!! 

Me I did it. I did!!!!!!!!! 8 minutes I never thought that I would see the day that I would run 8 minutes! I thought that for sure I would never make it past 5 minutes. 5 minutes was so two weeks ago! Yes thats right two weeks ago. We skipped 7 and went straight to 8. 

The first 8 minutes were okay I did pretty good considering that it had been raining since last night and the humidity was pretty high. But I did it. The second 8 minutes was tougher for me I had to break them up a bit but It still felt good and I didn't give up.

We had another guest speaker tonight, actually 2 speakers talking about motivation, and these people really motivated me. Especially the one guy named Tracey. He was awesome. He talked about running his first marathon and several other marathons. He talked about how he gets up and goes to the gym every morning and works out, and that a woman asked if he would like to train to see if he could make it to the Beijing Olympics on 2008 for rowing. They were only letting the top 2 Canadians go to Beijing, he unfortunately placed 3rd.  Tracey is always looking for something new to do and is up for new challenges. But that is not what motivated me. It wasn't all the 1/2 marathons or the full marathon, or even the Olympic thing that motivated me. It wasn't even that he didn't let things stop him and get in his way. What really got me going and motivated me was that he has this spark about him and how passionate he was even with limitations.......Oh wait did I forget to tell you that he is blind? Thats right that's what I said he is blind.

So if he can accomplish all of this I think that I can keep going. I really needed this motivation tonight. He really made me open my eyes. It also made me think of a quote that my husband always says and lives by.....

 "The world doesn't meet you half way, if you want something you gotta get out there and take it."

I am really starting to understand and believe this. I have come so far in the last 7 weeks looking back I think I thought that I would have given up by now. I am glad I didn't chicken out and I am glad that I haven't given up on myself. In 7 weeks I have gained more self-esteem and I have more confidence in myself. I am starting to like my new self. I am starting to have more respect for myself and I now feel that I matter. I am not just someone's mom or wife. I am Sam and I am putting me first for a change and I like it.   

This tired runner is about to fall asleep in this chair so it's off to bed for me. Good night!

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

6 Minutes.......

Well yesterday was our 6 minute run. I did okay not great but okay. It was pretty hard with all the rain that we had last week and then running in the cold it really affected my lungs. I was able to run the first 6 minutes with very little trouble but the second and third 6 minutes proved to be a lot harder. but I did finish so that was good. We also had a talk on nutrition about what your supposed to eat and what times and how much. It was very informative.  

Very busy this week but will try to post more later.